IRISH ROSE~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

HAS ANYONE LOST ANY THEY LOVE WITH ALL THIER HEART? YOU FEEL AS THOUGH YOUR SOUL IS DEAD. I LOST MY SISTER AND BEST FRIEND THREE YEARS AGO. I WAS IN SO MUCH PAIN . I WAS MAD AT HER FOR LEAVING ME AND MORE IMPORTANT I WAS MAD AT GOD. I WAS TERRIBLY ANGRY AT MY FAMILY THE WAY THEY ACTED AT THE SERVICE. I HAD PAID FOR EVEYTHING, AND DID NOT MIND. RITA MY PEARL WOULD HAVE DONE THE SAME FOR ME. BUT, WHEN MY ONE BITCH HALF SISTER TOLD MY DAUGHTER SHE COULD NOT RIDE IN THE LIMO, THAT HURT. AFTER TIME WENT BY ALL I COULD THINK WAS I WANTED TOO BE WITH MY RITA. SO, I TRIED TO KILL MYSELF MANY TIMES. THE SAD THING IS MY DAUGHTER FOUND ME DEAD ONCE. THE FIRE DEPT. BROUGHT ME BACK TOO LIFE. WHEN I WOULD WAKE UP IN THE HOSPITAL, FOUR POINTED. I WOULD BE SO ANGRY. I FINALLY REALIZED THAT I COULD NOT LEAVE MY BEAUTIFULL BABY GIRL. SHE WAS EIGHT YEARS OLD AT THE TIME AND AT MY MANY TIMES TO THE HOSPITAL,5150ed. SHE TOLD ME MOMMY IF YOU LEAVE ME I WILL FEEL THE SAME WAY YOU FEEL ABOUT RITA. ALSO, I WILL WANT TO DIE TOO BE WITH YOU. WOW, THAT WAS A EYE OPENER, OUT OF THE MIND OF BABES! IT HAS BEEN TWO YEARS WITH NO ATTEMPTS. MY DAUGHTER AND I SEE A TERIPST EVERY WEEK, WE HAVE BECAME EXTERMLY CLOSE. EVEN THOUGH MY X- HUSBAND HAD HIS ATTN. ORDER THE JUDGE TO AMEND IT, THANK GOD IT IS THE ONE THINK HE DID THAT WAS GOOD FOR OUR FAMILY. WE ARE NOT TOGETHER ,FOR HE IS MARRIED TO HIS MILLION DOLLAR AYEAR JOB. HE BUILDS HUGE BILDINGS. I'M AT PEACE WITH MY RITA PEARL AND THAT MAKES ME SMILE. DEATH AND GRIEVING IS A PROSSES, IT IS THE HARDEST THING A PERSON CAN GO THROUGH. BUT, AS TIME GOES BY IT DOES GET EASIER. I HOPE THIS HELPS SOMEONE.

DOES ANYONE LIKE TO MOVE? I AM IN THE PROSSES OF MOVING TO A NEW HOUSE, IT IS A BUMMER, BUT IT WILL BE NICE WHEN I AM IN MY NEW PLACE! I HAVE SO MUCH CRAP, I AM A IN COLLAGE AND HAVE SO MANY BOOKS. I'M TAKING A SEMESTER OFF, FOR I HAVE TO GO TO A DRUG PROGRAM FOR A DRIVING UNDER THE INFLUENCE, FUN. ALSO I HAVE TO PAY A LARGE FINE, I SURE LEARNED NOT TO GET BEHIND THE WHEEL WHEN DRUNK. ON THE LIGHTER SIDE I'M HAVING A GREAT SUMMER IN SUNNY SUTHERN CA CA GIRL ALL THE WAY, BORN AND RAISED. THE BEACH IS GREAT, LOVE TO BOGGY BOARD AND PEOPLE WATCH. GETTING A GREAT TAN TOO. I LIVE IN THE DESERT WHERE IT IS 110 EVERY DAY. THANK GOD FOR AIR CONDITIONING!!!!!!!!!!! I WOULD'NT LIVE ANYWHERE ELSE, I LOVE IT. SINGLE AND FREE!!!!!!!!!! I HAVE A 15 YEAR OLD DAUGHTER THAT I LOVE TO SPEND TIME WITH, WE HAVE A BLAST TOGETHER!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM HAPPY TO BE FREE, I GOT RID OF MY SPOUSE LAST YEAR AND NOT LOOKING FOR ANYONE, IF THE RIGHT PERSON DOES COME ALONG I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. HAPPY AND FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SADNESS WAS THE WORD OF THAT DAY

WHEN YOU DESIDED TO SLIP AWAY

AND WHEN THE SKY TURNED GRAY

YOU LEFT SO FAST

ALL I CAN REMEMBER IS THE PAST

YOU'VE BEEN THERE SINCE MY BIRTH

I WISHED YOU'D BE HERE WHEN I LEFT THE EARTH

SINCE BACK THEN MY WORLD HAS END

AND I KNOW YOUR IN A BETTER PLACE

THAT DAY WHEN I SAW YOUR FACE  I KNEW YOU SAW GRACE

NOW THAT YOU'VE MOVED ON

I NOW FEEL SO STRONG

REST IN PEACE

RITA.PEARL

you were there when i fell you new me very well,my sister rita pearl